Monday, July 05, 2004

Disappointment

ms tan's words always left a deep impact on me.. she toked to me aft e prac juz now..
ms tan: zhihui come here..
me: ya?
n i noticed tat her eyes were watery..
ms tan: zhihui ah, next time when ms tan is not around.........
tat was then when i got e hint.. is ms tan really leavin?
ms tan: don mix around wif those kind of pp.. u shld knoe who i am referrin to.. ive never like students who werent under me before.. u are a good ger, there are many guys around.. don be mesmerised by his playin.. this kind of pp bu hao re.. muz trust teacher..
i was like 'huh? wat e hell was tat..i mean i treat him as a senior n not someone....oh well forget it.. wat do u actually mean??' but decided to keep quiet..
me: sorry ms tan.. sorry ms tan..
n y in e hell did mr wong chipped in juz out of e blue?,
mr wong: huh? tat one ur boyfriend ah?
i was then again showin e omg-i-treat-him-as-a-senior-only-stupid-wong expression.. n went protestin in a rather irritated look.........

- Zhihui's blog

I was left speechless after reading this part of her blog, utterly dismayed at what had gone on behind our back. People who are supposed to lead by example backstabbing us? Oh man, what more can I say?

"the main reason for my blogging rite now is just to reflect, not to condemn." - Zalina's blog

For this, I'm not going to say much about Doreen Tan. I have had enough of condemning in my previous post. I believe that most of the current band members still do respect her very much and hence I shall not unleash the bitch in me. What I can say is that whatever little respect I had for her had since evaporated after reading this extract.

It's saddening, isn't it? Being outcast for no reason. Guilty without trial. Straight to the gallows.

And no, I'm just not going to stop for this. Why let them have their way when we can have our way? As Ivan puts it: "The more they don?t want to see me, the more I will show up!"

They don't have an oboe for me? Fine, I'll bring mine. I don't play on just any oboe anyway.

They don't have reeds for me? Fine, I'll use mine. I make them myself anyway.

They don't have a stand for me? Nevermind, I can bring one along.

No chair? I'll stand.

No access to the school? I'll complain to the principal and/or MOE if necessary. Don't even attempt to try me.
fjozn at 1:50 PM